Here is a before shot.

My sisters and I are on track to being thin. ;) Well at least that is the goal. I for one am carrying about 40lbs extra. That is a problem. I have started to notice headaches, body aches and general fatigue continue to be a problem for me, and I'm tired of being out of energy and achey all the damn time.

I started back on Weight Watchers, which worked for me remarkably well before and after I had Kira. What I've been doing with myself for the last nearly 6 years though is not good. And it shows. I printed this picture to show the yard. I forgot to switch it over to photo paper, so I got a ginormous shot on 8X10. What I didn't know prior to printing was that I was in it on the edge. I was really disappointed in myself and embarrassed by this picture of me. This is me, not posing, not knowing I'm in the shot, turned to the side. And I couldn't believe how large I look. I am ashamed when I see this picture. I really struggled with posting it at all. But I think that if I'm going to be honest with myself on this journey to get well and lose this weight, I had to start by being honest about what other people see when they look at me.

I'll be posting "after" pics with my sister once a month. Hopefully in a few short months we'll all be seeing much better shots of me!


Jubilant Planet said...

Hey Heidi it's Jill - I've been going through the same "getting honest" stuff with myself lately.

I'm proud of you for facing what makes you uncomfortable and I'm grateful that you share yourself with the rest of us.


Katie said...

You know you are beautiful!

I don't want to post mine either...but I'm going to go do it right now.


**MIGNONNE** said...

I too am out to lose 20-40 pounds. It is so hard! I hope you all the success in the world. You go girl!!!

wholarmor said...

Good luck! Looking forward to seeing the after pictures. I could stand to lose some, too!

Jennifer said...

Good for you, Heidi!! Everyone has a picture (or 30) that they hate, whether due to weight, chins, thighs, cellulite, girth.... You are beautiful inside and out, but for you to put your "scary" picture up on your blog is so brave! Good luck on your goal, to you and your sister!